I can’t remember
The last time I looked forward to the beginning of summer with anything other than.
A slight dread of what was to come
To be honest the other seasons have always had a hold on my heart. The crisp cool golden mornings of Autumn, streaming sunshine through falling leaves, and the bitter cold of afternoon walking down snow-covered rural roads.
Or the fresh approach spring takes each time it’s turn comes around..those are my seasons.
Summer has always seemed to be something that other people lived for with it’s afternoons frolicking in the lake or relaxing at the beach, hanging out at the park.
For us here in the Okanagan, summer means extra early mornings that can start with a 4 am wakeup call of constantly cawing crows, and endless rounds of dealing with water restrictions.
Sweating and swatting at mosquitoes, avoiding bugs, and unseasonably early heat in the high 30’s [ Celsius] that drained out any fun.
It’s not that I don’t love summer, but it was no longer my favorite season, it felt like a endurance race.
That’s not good.
And that’s what blogging had begun to feel like…
A long list of “you must do this, and you must do that” to be a good blogger, to keep up with the way the blogging world has changed.
Rules, and obligations that other people promoted, getting caught up in the hype, and all the while my 8th year blogging anniversary loomed.
Each time I thought about posting it felt as if I was reaching less of my readers than usual…was it worth it? Did anyone read my work? A post can take hours to draft, rewrite, photograph, and layout…and I had so many things to accomplish that day.
We’re all so busy, engaged in our own worlds and it made me feel as if it was too much work to even start a post.
Every item that needed to be checked off of a list before publication, text, layout, design, pinterest worthy pins, SEO, headers, images, social media shares, and newsletter creation.
Was I – finished – was I over blogging?
Helping out at the farm for the asparagus season meant that anything other than eating and sleeping was put aside for the duration. My social media sites went into dormancy.
Add in that I’m feeling sore with a pinched nerve in my neck making my time on the computer limited, painful.
Numb fingers, tingling nerves.
Along with how RURAL magazine needs some attention, all our work publishing the previous issues shouldn’t go to waste…momentum “they” say…keep it up…move forward.
Who are they?
The new blogging world…the ones who have changed our posting landscape dramatically….
Oh, you didn’t notice that the blogging world has changed?
But it has….and that’s life.
It’s all about change.
Life moves forward and so does my blog – but at a slower pace for this season.
If you take away one thing from this post it’s that mindfulness is all about living a fuller life, enjoying the seasons, living in this very moment no matter how the tiny voice inside your head tells you how to blog.
It’s about taking the time to share only the best content, the most beautiful images that you can create yourself.
When it’s meaningful enough….I’ll be sharing those images and moments with you.
Look for less on my blog during the summer, my garden has requested more of my presence, I’ve got a wedding to shoot, and those stunning golden hazy sunsets over fields of wheat need to be captured when the sun dips behind our mountains.
Less posts but more meaning.
I’m taking back my love of summer with it’s streaming sunshine, and warmth. And I’m taking back my love of blogging.
Living for those moments when I stop the bike in the middle of a rural road to thrill at the sound of the baby wrens waiting impatiently for Mama to feed them breakfast, and also to allow that beautiful music to overcome the sound of the cawing crows in the trees above.
Or shooting the first peas from the veggie garden, and eating them for breakfast.
Now that’s living.
We won’t lose touch, our circles will still overlap
When we run into each other it will be because we have something interesting to share.
Look for me in the upcoming pages of RURAL magazine..it’s going to be published sometime in July. As soon as my pinched nerve improves enough to spend any amount of time at the computer I’ll be putting together the next issue.
Speaking of circles overlapping, coincidences, and similar mind paths …I woke up this morning to a beautiful post written by Anne from Love the here and now…and found out that I was included as one of her email newsletters Bloggers of the month!
Anne writes so beautifully and her words describing my blogging style move me, Thank you Anne for including me, I appreciate your kind words.
And thank you to those who read my posts with such regularity, to those amazing women I’ve met through blogging your kind comments have encouraged and uplifted me more than you know.
Your blogs continue to inspire me to keep blogging, to try harder to dig deeper.
To share content that is meaningful and engaging.
Here’s to blogging, no matter how we decide to do it, or how often we do it!
Long live blogging.
Gratefully, Jen @ The Light Laughed.